Satish Multhalli

Re-Death
I kill my present,

looking for a future past

-when I was sad,

happy too-

to meet the ghosts of past

-I kill my present-

who scream to me

that they helped me once

out of the grave they put me into-

laughed at me; held my shoulder

killed me; gave me a new life

when from a happy present

I had retreated to them

"once upon a time"…

I kill myself:

everyday,

every night,

to wake up anew

with new thoughts

but into a past

listening to them-

the ghosts of past-

which were too dear to me

the ally,

and reasons,

of my bad past…

And the cycle continues-

taking birth

committing suicide

every day-

-being sad in past

-questioning the present

compromising with pain

being contented with those in pain

-a patient with a patient-

not coming out of

of the hospital:of past..

And being surprised

when happiness comes

-the ray of hope-

the quest:

for darkness overpowers;

and you recede back

-once again-

killing yourself

meeting your friends

-the fellow patients-

suffering like you

not ready to heal
but making everyone sick…
©Rahul Sharma 2012

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